vrijdag 28 augustus 2009


I've lost some, those last few weeks. And today I've lost another one.
It made me deside to never let anyone come close again.. You only get hurt when you do.

I saw one of my ex-boyfriends the other day in the tram. He did not recocnise me. He looked awfull and I was wondering what it was I ever saw in him. He was skinny, had a beard - I hate facial hair- and he had big bags under his eyes. I know, he looked awsome when I met him: tall, blond curly hair, eyes with twinkles in it and a smile to die for. But the other day? Nah.. I almost felt sorry for him, but then I remembered how he left me for a girl with bigger boobs (he told me he had a new girlfriend with bigger tits then me, I never met his new Bimbo) and the sorry went away.

My ex-friends want the stuff back that has been in my house for some reason, and hey want to bring my stuff back too. Money owed, which was never a problem when to pay back, becomes an issue and needs to be payed back as soon as possible.

I want it to get over with too, as fast as possible, because a clean cut heals faster. And I am cutting too: deep and clean. So I can move on with my life. With enough friends to go out with, have fun with and be social with. But I will never ever let anyone come close again. I'm done getting hurt.

4 opmerkingen:

A-L zei

oh that sucks when it happens - but sometimes it is inevitable to break up. Wether it is a friend of a boyfriend - sometimes you just need to end it.
I send you a big virtual *hug* to help you heal...

Marion zei

Thnx! I know its inevitable sometimes. and eventhough its not nice now, I do know when one door closes, another will open.

Vincent zei

I bet you 100 euro that sooner or later you will let someone come close again. And I'll bet you another 100 that at some point one of those people will stick around :-)

Marion zei

And I bet you whatever that I won't. Trust me I've learned my lesson and I can be very stubborn :)